Yarn Along - Kotes es olvasas

I have two passions that keep following me in life. One of them is reading, and the other one is knitting. I am sure this is not a revelation for you, if you read my blog from time to time. However, today I am going to combine the two with this icon, Yarn Along.
The idea behind this icon is to match up two things you enjoy. It could be a description of a knitting, and some musings over a book; or it can be a picture to illustrate your progress in knitting/crocheting and the book.
This is how I join in with Ginny on Wednesdays about knitting and reading.

Ket dolog van amit soha nem unok meg, az olvasas es a kotes. Gondolom, ez nem nagy hir, ha mar olvastatok a blogot, de most elhataroztam, hogy osszekotom oket a Yarn Along gombbal.
Itt az az otlet, hogy ossze hozzuk azt, ami orommel tolt el minket. Az lehet egy kotes/horgolas leirasa, es egy konyvrol valo monfondirozas. Es lehet egy foto is, amin a konyv es az alakulo kotes/horgolas van.
Igy csatlakozom Ginny szerdai olvasok es kotok oldalahoz.

I started a new (to me) Judi Picoult book, Sing you home. I am on page 42, and like the promise of the book. Like is not the right word here, because it is devastating as the story opens up, but Picoult has a way of making devastating and unusual events become acceptable and tolerable.
I am knitting a scarf for my husband for about a year (!) now. It stated as a surprise, but of course you can not keep a secret this long, especially when the winter comes and goes and approaches again. So now I have put all my UFOs aside and just knitting this piece.

Elkezdtem Judi Picoult ujabb konyvet, Gyere haza, most angolul. Meg csak a 42. oldalon tartok, de ugy erzem, megint belecsoppentem egy olyan vilagba, ami nem szokvanyos, de Picoult nagyon egyszeruen fog vegig navigalni, es jo lesz ezt az utazast megelni.
Most elovettem egy munkat amit mar egy(!) eve kezdtem el. A ferjemnek kezdtem el tavaly ezt a salat, de nem fejeztem be se a szulinapjara, se karacsonyra. Es hat megint jon a tel, es tenyleg jo lenne, ha tudna mar hordani, igy most semmi massal nem foglalkozom.

Video on Thursday - Csutortoki video

 This is the first time I post a video here. I loved the message and the visual content. I see New York the same way, we go through the same places.... I am a sucker for visual pleasure, but his narration is the most important thing in here.
I highly recommend his book (The way of Zen) as well, it was a favorite for me may years ago. 



Ez az elso alkalom, hogy egy videot ugy erzem, meg kell osztanom. Van benne igazasag es valahogy New Yorkot is ugy latja, ahogy, amit en.... De amit mond az fontosabb azert a vizualis szepsegnel.
Alan Watts  konyve,  A Zen utja sok evvel ezelott szinten nagy kedvencem volt.

Wild chestnuts - Vadgesztenyek

My city Pecs, where I grew up, is famous for for it's chestnuts. We used to make little people or animals out of them with matchsticks.
Somehow they represent magic, the coloring and how smooth they feel in your hand. These we gathered with my Mom not long ago. Fall is here.

Pecs hires a vadgesztenyefairol. Emlekszem, amikor kisgyerek voltam, mindenfelet csinaltunk beloluk, allatot, emberket, csak par gyufa kellett hozza. Van bennuk valami varazslatos, a szinuk, az erzes amit az erintesuk ad, valahogy megfoghatatlan. Ezeket az anyuval szedtuk nemreg. Tenyleg itt van az osz.

Yarn Along - kotes es olvasas

I have two passions that keep following me in life. One of them is reading, and the other one is knitting. I am sure this is not a revelation for you, if you read my blog from time to time. However, today I am going to combine the two with this icon, Yarn Along.
The idea behind this icon is to match up two things you enjoy. It could be a description of a knitting, and some musings over a book; or it can be a picture to illustrate your progress in knitting/crocheting and the book.
This is how I join in with Ginny on Wednesdays about knitting and reading.

Ket dolog van amit soha nem unok meg, az olvasas es a kotes. Gondolom, ez nem nagy hir, ha mar olvastatok a blogot, de most elhataroztam, hogy osszekotom oket a Yarn Along gombbal.
Itt az az otlet, hogy ossze hozzuk azt, ami orommel tolt el minket. Az lehet egy kotes/horgolas leirasa, es egy konyvrol valo monfondirozas. Es lehet egy foto is, amin a konyv es az alakulo kotes/horgolas van.
Igy csatlakozom Ginny szerdai olvasok es kotok oldalahoz.

I am in Hungary for a few more weeks. I just finished reading Doris Lessing's book, The fifth child in Hungarian. I did not know much about her, except that she won the Nobel Price some time ago. So when I happened to see this book in the library, I took it out.
I am not into her style. However I need to say, that writing about emotionally taxing things in such an ease is amazing. While reading it, it almost lets you slide over the big problem/challenge.
I have promised friends here to knit them stuff. I am almost done with a teapot cozy, a hat, and have to make a fingerless mitten. Having promised all these things, I could not contain myself and started a lace stole.

Somehow I have to knit lace among other things. The pattern has been on a Hungarian (knitting store's) website for a while now, but I kind of got stuck with triangle shawls. The step by step tutorial with pictures and the graph will make it self explanatory even if you do not speak Hungarian.

Meg par hetig itt vagyok Magyarorszagon, igy a konyvtarbol magyarul hoztam ki Doris Lessing: Az otodik gyerek cimu konyvet. Megint a veletlen vezerelt ehhez a konyvhoz, meg az, hogy tudtam, hogy nyert Nobel dijat, de meg nem olvastam tole semmit sem.
Hat nem mondhatnam hogy megfogott a stilusa. Ugyanakkor nagyon erdekes, hogy hogy tud valaki ilyen lazan irni egy rettenetes problemarol/kihivasrol. Olyannyira laza, hogy majdnem nem veszi eszre az ember, hogy amirol ir annak igazan nagy a sulya.

Sok ismerosnek beigertem itt koteseket, teaskanna boritot, ujjatlan kesztyut, egy sapeszt, de valahogy nem teljes az elet, ha az ember lanya nem kot valami csipkeset. Igy nekialltam egy regen lekozolt mintanak Ercsutol, ami nagyon tetszett mar anno, csak valahogy leragadtam a haromszog alaku kendoknel.

after the seconf IVF - masodik lombikbebi utan

Unfortunately this cycle of IVF did not hold.  I thought it would be easy to navigate myself through the emotions and procedures and blog about it. I am a pretty open person, yet there is something about this that is sacred. It almost feels, that I will jinx it, if I write about it, while it is happening... I know this is silly, but I find myself grabbing on to ideas that I could have never entertained before, just to have this little baby in my arms.
This was our second cycle. During the hormone injections I felt fine. Half way I went for a check up, and there were no  follicles. How could that be? This is the biggest fear one can have in this situation, when even with medicine, no follicles show up. I had number three, as my magical number, that I was envisioning, and really thought it would come through. I was taking 3 Menopur -75NE- twice a day. I have also started another injection, that I did not do last time, which was Gonapeptyl -0.1mg- and I used half of it daily. (It stimulates the pituitary release of LH and FSH) 
 So my doctor upped the Menopur to 4 vials from 3, twice a day. But I only had  four-five days left. You can postpone ovulation only for so long. I wanted to stay positive, but in 4-5 days, what kind of rush is that? When I went for my second ultrasound, I had four follicles. Three of them had an acceptable mature size. So after all, I got my magical number! The doctor was shocked. I was elated, even though I realized, that the chances are, that not all of them must be developed all the way. So we set the day of the egg retrieval. That day I was happy, anxious and excited. They retrieved 3 eggs. I felt like it was luxury, three eggs. However only one became an embryo. One was immature and the other one did not get fertilized. Okay, one is a good number, I only need one to work. Thought I have to confess, we have entertained the thought of twins or triplets... After the implantation I did more bed rest than last time, but I don't think this is as important as some people swear by it, nor do my doctors.
So here I am now. Yesterday and the day before I went through fear and panic. I am better today, as I need to gear up for for our next cycle.  In Hungary you have to wait 3 months between procedures, and my plan is to join the gym (continue with the Pilates) and look for a seasonal holiday job at home (New York), and come back in full force. I am going to go back to the US in a couple of weeks. I miss my husband so much.

Sajnos ez a lombik bebis kor nem jott ossze. Tudom, megigertem, hogy irni fogok rola es beszamolok reszletesen, hogy mit erzek, es mi van eppen soron. Eleg nyitott ember vagyok, de megis, amikor benne voltam a folyamatban, akkor ugy ereztem ebben van valami, amit nem tudok megfogalmazni, es ha irok rola lehet hogy azzal vivom ki magam ellen a sorsot. Tudom, ebben semmi racio nincs, de azon kapom magam, hogy minden esszel felfoghato, es felfoghatatlan dologba kapaszkodok, hogy segitsen abban hogy ezt a kisbabat vegre a kezembe foghassam.
Ez volt a masodik alkalom, hogy elkezdtuk a lombik bebi programot. A hormon injecio alatt nagyon jol ereztem magam. Megint Menopurt -75NE- injekcioztam, 3 poruveget naponta ketszer. Amikor mentem az elso ultrahangra, hat nem volt egyetlen egy tuszom sem. Pedig annyira vizulaltam 3 petet. Annyira hittem benne. Ez a legrosszabb hir, amit az ember kaphat a lombik kapcsan, hogy nincs pete, amit meg lehet termekenyiteni. Egyszeruen sokkolt, nem is ertettem. Emelett a hormon melett meg kaptam egy masik gyogyszert, Gonapeptylt, -0.1mg- aminek a felet kellett naponta beadnom. (Ez a gyogyszer az agyalapi mirigyre hat, hogy tobb legyen az LH es az FSH.)
Ekkor az orvos felemelte a Menopur adagomat, es 4 poruveget adtam be magamnak naponta ketszer. Viszont mar nem volt sok idom, es racionalisan nem ertettem, hogy negy-ot  nap alatt hogy fejlodhet ki egy egeszseges pete. Amikor a masodik ultrahangra mentem, mindenki megdobbenesere negy tuszo fogadott minket. Ebbol harom eleg jo meretu volt. (Na megiscsak megvolt az a varazslatos szam!!) Az orvos meg volt lepodve. Kiirtuk a peteleszivas napjat! Aznap nagyon izgatott, boldog es feszult voltam, megiscsak nagy a tet. Mert ugye a negy tuszoben nem lehet tudni, hogy hany pete van? Vegulis harmat szivtak le, ami csodalatos. A megtermekenyites utan egy embrio alakult ki. Az egyik pete volt eleg fejlett, a masik meg valami oknal fogva nem termekenyult meg. Az egyes szam is jo szam, pont eleg nekunk! Na azert nem mondanam, hogy nem jatszottunk el az ikrek gondolataval... A beultetest kovetoen fekudtem, tobbet is mint multkor, de nem ezen mulik, ebben az orvossal is megegyeztunk.
Hat es most itt tartunk, ket nap felelem es panik utan (a jovo bizonytalansaga miatt) ma mar jobban vagyok, es keszulok az ujabb ciklusra. A biztosito miatt kell harom honapot varni, igy ket harom heten belul haza megyek New Yorkba. Mar annyira hianyzi a ferjem, nehez ezt igy nehez egyedul vegig csinalni.  Azt terveztem, hogy beiratkozok egy torna terembe, (folytatom a pilatest) es keresek munkat az unnepek alatti hajrara.